It is indeed very cold. It's been forever that I am haunted by my past. No matter how you try to get off with it, it creeps in you like a disease. The very last thing I want to do on this planet is to warm everything up. People are cold. You're cold with someone and another is cold with you.I wish everything could just be normal.I've always dreamt of Kokomo, the place where the beachboys will want to spend their day.It's a song i've always played in my head and up to now, Kokomo is just nothing but another song..
Life is not a game, if it is, I would have always been the loser.I guess, the only thing I could think of at the moment is I'm glad that most people have warm theirselves with what they have, to the ones that are still left cold, there's plenty of stuff you can get to warm yourself.Do i get enough warmth?I don't know, i feel really chilled today.Maybe it's the weather and add the people that left me cold.Looking back at the past, everything is the same.The only thing that makes it different is that the world is just getting smaller and smaller.I am indeed frozen in time, a very long time ago, and I am still caged in this bag of ice.But the world doesn't stop revolving, the world will never be on your side.You wake up and you realize you've been left behind.You hear the laughters, the smile, the happiness... I'm glad, that sound is around me.I just wish I could sing with them, If i could only get myself off from this cold ice and melt everything away, i know i can be there.
While I was at the hospital a couple of weeks ago, I saw an interesting documentary about an ice hotel.Literally, it's a hotel made of ice.Everything, from bed, to floor, to plates, it's all made of ice.The downside, it will only last for a month, as soon as the weather changes, everything will melt.They opened the hotel for guests to stay in.I wonder, how can everyone else stay there with such amazement and wonder where everything is made on ice?It makes no difference with the world I am at, but I don't feel their joy.Maybe it's the outlook, maybe because it's not permanent, or maybe because they have someone to warm them despite the cold environment.
I wish i would have enough anger to melt the ice away.But I don't, the anger don't last too long, not strong enough to break free.Most of the time, I want to think that most of them have moved on, everytime I do, an avalanche will thicken the pile of ice.The more I get stuck.I am never gonna get out of the coldness, it will always be freezing out there..
